I've been experienced a very hard time for several years and I felt sick about it. I wanted it to stop and I said " God, please make it stop, I want to be happy....it hurt so bad I can bear it any longer....please Jesus stop this. I prayed, cried and shouted but nothing happened...He just kept silent. What should I do?? I don't want to break your law but I can't do this.....
I was a little bit early on the Good Friday service at my church, I sat there alone... and prayed the same thing. I said, Jesus ..why is this happened to me ??? I did nothing wrong, I don't want to bear this. it's not fair...it's not fair...I said. All I ever want is to be happy.
But then Jesus showed me the cross....He said, you see...I'm not guilty either and I also did nothing wrong but I have to die because of you sins. It also hurt, but I did it because I Love you, I want you to free from your sins. and He spread his arm and ask, " Do you love me?". I know it's hurt but you can get through this because I will be with you, I will never leave you , I will give you strength to carry on and at he end the victory is yours...all you have to do is have faith and trust me. so I cried and said , "Yes Jesus", I believe in You and I know with You I can bear all things.....
Hanya Kau Tuhan dihidupku
Kau berikan hidup yang baru
Darah-Mu menyucikan, pulihkan hatiku
Kunyatakan Kau-lah segalanya
Engkaulah sumber pengharapan
Kuasa-Mu sanggup menyembuhkan
Jiwaku pun berserah hanya kepada-Mu
Yesus Kau-lah segalanya
Reff:
Kar'na salib-Mu kuhidup
Kar'na salib-Mu kumenang
Engkau yang berkuasa
Sanggup tuk melakukan
Mukjizat-Mu dihidupku
With love,hope and faith,
